friday da 13th.

I actually did stuff at work this mornings. What has life become?! Usually on Fridays, I sit and count tiles but today they actually kept us busy! We made folders and stocked baby warmers and put stickers on things and used a label maker! It's really pathetic when that's a highlight of my day. Now I'm sitting in my office waiting for my friend to call from Ireland! She said she'd call sometime between noon and four my time which means I could be sitting here waiting for a while. Which is actually fine cause I don't really have anything else to do anyway. Um... so I just found this patch of skin on my arm that's a gross and flaky and I don't know why.... sorry, random tangent. Tonight, I have to work, and Tanmay will be gone so it'll just be me, Sam and John, but John doesn't even do anything... so really it'll just be me and Sam. So we'll be reallllly busy. Then I have to go over to TEC where I'll be spending the rest of my weekend... YAY! But for now, I'm stuck sitting by the phone, waiting for it to ring. Which is hella boring. Meh. Also, my hair is wavy today. In case you were wondering.

not my day.

I don't know why, but this has really just not been my weekend.. at all. I feel like I'm so tired I could just collapse but I haven't even done anything and I've gotten plenty of sleep. Everything and everyone is pissing me off and I just want to crawl into a dark corner and cry. It's probably long overdue... I mean, everyone has times like this, right? I usually brush these kinds of moods off and focus on acting happy but I just don't have the energy to do that right now. Like seriously, I could probably lay down in my bed right now and never get up again. But this is turning into a downer post and that's no fun.. so I'll give you a weekend recap instead.

Friday, I worked.... and then I think I hung out with my mom (?) then I worked some more. That night I saw Magic Mike (questionable at best...). Saturday, I hung out with dearest Lyssa and got coffeeeeee and then my dad and I went to see Brave (much less questionable than Magic Mike). Today I went to church, cleaned my room, hung out with Laura and Laina then went out to dinner to celebrate my daddy's birthday (which is technically tomorrow, but its whatever).

So yeah... kind of a lame weekend. I probably wouldn't have been the most enjoyable person to be around anyway honestly. I don't know what's wrong with me... mehhhh.

Hopefully this next week will be a lot more happy and exciting.. I have some things I really need to get sorted out before this weekend happens so cross your fingers that it goes well and doesn't end in an epic train wreck, which honestly is very likely. UGH. Kay, I'm going to go to sleep now, rant ovah.

"Don't let yesterday take up too much of today."

new sweater! look, i seem happy, right?? yayyy faking it!

growing up.

I guess I'm giving this blog a comeback. Thanks Laura for inspiring me to get back on the blog train. When I got a tumblr a few months ago, I kind of gave up this thinking that would be the same but guess what, it's not! So you missed some seriously important events, senior prom, spring musical, graduation, graduation party, NYC trip... I've been a busy girl! But now life is changing and I'm starting a new chapter in my life. Heading off to college in a month and a half, I want to record this next step just like I recorded my (beginning/middle of) senior year. I love looking back at my old posts and remember what a dork I was. We'll see how often I actually update this. Who knows, maybe my mom and dad will read this to keep up with me while I'm in St. Louis... I guess that means I'll have to control my language. Struggle of the century. 

With college right around the corner, I've been thinking a lot about who I am and who I want to become. After seeing Channing Tatum's new movie, Magic Mike, I realized that I'm not your average young woman. To be honest, I felt scummy after seeing it and like I seriously needed to go to confession. #catholickidproblems I know.. I was supposed to take Jenna and Alyssa to go see it, but I can't bring myself to take them knowing how it is. Maybe I'm a prude or an old fart at the ripe age of 18 but that's just not the kind of girl I want to be. I'm finding that in college, my options will be even more than I imagined and I don't want to be the girl who wastes her life living for the temporary things in the moment. I want to change the world, which may sound cliche but I want my life to mean something more. Now I'm probably just aimlessly babbling and I should go to bed... it's 12:20 at night after all. I'll probably look back at this post in the morning or 10 years from now and laugh at myself, but that's part of the fun of a blog, right? We'll just go with that I guess.

Hopefully I'll start getting into the habit of blogging more and such... nothing exciting, probably more of a personal life log than anything else. It'll be interesting to see what happens one year from now and how my life has worked out.

"One day, your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure it's worth watching."

happy maggie.

It's beautifullll outside today! I mean, it's tech week for our musical but even that isn't bringing me down. I honestly haven't felt this happy in a very long time. Hopefully the rest of the week will be this beautiful. Spring break and the end of the year are approaching and I'm sooo ready to be out of school. Sitting in class is a form of awful torture. I have a reaaaally bad case of senioritis...

oh hey.

I guess I still have a blog. I went through and re-read a lot of my posts and it's really cool to be able to have a first hand account of the little details of my senior year, so I figured I should maybe get back into the swing of this. I know, it's been foreverrrr, but a  ton of shit has gone down in the last month.

Like 3-ish weeks ago (it feels like sooo much longer!), my parents and I went to Orlando to go to Disney World and the Wizarding World of Harry Potter. Needless to say, it was a fabulous fabulous trip and I thoroughly enjoyed every minute of it, even if the weather didn't necessarily cooperate.. freezing cold isn't exactly the way I like Florida to be, but we made the best of it! We stayed at the Boardwalk resort on the Disney grounds and it was beautiful. The location was perfect, the room was fantastic and the atmosphere was still very Disney, in a more subdued, elegant fashion. It's so hard to believe that this was the last big family vacation to Disney we'll go on until I have my own kids... we used to go every 18-ish months when I was younger! It's like the end of an era, very bittersweet.

Also, cheer season is officially over!! I am so so so glad that phase of my life has come to a close. I can't really say I miss it much... actually, I don't miss it at all. Musical has sort of filled up the free time cheer left me with, so I'm still busy, which is good. I guess I probably haven't even written anything about the musical in here... We're doing "The Boy Friend" and I have the role of Nancy, which isn't a hugeee part, but I'm happy and I've gotten really close with a lot of the other cast members. We go off book in rehearsals on Tuesday and it's starting to freaaaak me out. Our first show is in 12 days, it's crunch time and I'm getting nervous! Today, Jackie and I sang a duet for solo/ensemble contest, which I thought went really well, but we'll find out what the judge thought on Monday. And last but not least in new news, Adam dumped me. Not gonna hash out the details for the internet to read but it's been and will be a long healing process and I figured it was important enough to document on here. So, once musical is over, I will officially have a shit ton of free time and I need a job badly. Yippee... can't wait. Oh well... such is life. I'll be leaving this hell-hole of a town for college and the great big world in like 5 months anyway, thank goodness. I know I say this all of the time on here but I literally have the greatest friends in the whole world. They have all been so helpful and supportive in the last few weeks with everything, I would probably be a hot mess without them. I owe them everything for all that they've done for me.

best ride at epcot, hands down.

family <3

at Olivander's wand shop :D i was chosen to have the 'wand choose me'. greatest experience ever.

hogwarts!

whoops.

To be completely honest with you, I totally forgot I had a blog until yesterday. Yepp... that's how crazy everything has been. I got my wisdom teeth taken out not too long after Christmas break and that put me out for almost a week because of dry sockets. Which meant I had a ton of school work to catch up on (and I'm still working on catching up in pre-cal... I swear, that class was thought of by the devil himself). Immediately after that, there was a TEC weekend, and then I went to Washington DC to participate in the pro-life rally and right to life march with my school. It was seriously one of the coolest experiences of my life. I wasn't a huge fan of DC itself but the march was really awesome. There were so many more people there than I had expected... something like 400,000 people standing up for the babies!! But... that trip meant missing more school and classes... and therefore putting me even farther behind. And now, I leave for Disney in less than a week and missing four more days of school. I'm starting to feel a little swamped with things to do honestly. Plus, I got put back on my anxiety medication (super fun, I know... my dad told me I was too 'bitchy' and said I had no option in the matter) so I feel really really sick. I haven't been able to eat and this stuff makes me ridiculously jittery so I just shake all the time.

In other news, I have my last cheerleading practice ever this afternoon! I'd like to say it's bittersweet, but it's not... it's just sweet. I honestly don't like cheer that much and I'm freaking ecstatic to be done. Senior night is on Tuesday and then we just have a few games left before it's all over! It's been a good experience, but I definitely won't be pursuing cheer in college.

Also... I miss my hair. A lot. Short hair is a pain in the ass.

grrrrr. i want my long, blonde hair back.

Washington DC!

clubbin.

Well... last night was an experience to say the least. A small local concert revenue was having an underage club sort of thing for high school kids with some djs and things. My friends and I thought it would be a fun, out of character thing for us to do as an early new years eve party. We really didn't know what to expect at all... and I'm not sure any of us were ready for what we saw. It was basically a bunch of drunk/high kids from various schools that were grinding sooo hard on each other. Not to mention the fact that the girls were all wearing the tightest, shortest skirts possible to man kind and acting like total sluts. I'm not gonna lie, I lost a lot of respect for people in my class. Needless to say, my friends and I left pretty early. Definitely not our scene.

In other news, we celebrated Laina's birthday and it was wonderful! She's officially 18!! Because of last nights event, we're spending tonight just watching movies and having a sleepover in Kath's basement.


(written saturday december 31... too lazy to post til now. awk for me.)