Friday, July 20, 2012


One month and two days. Holy poop, that isn't very long. I feel like college, that elusive, noncommittal being in the future, came up out of nowhere and I'm suddenly floundering in attempts to not forget anything. I've been buying the things I'll need like a crazy person and probably buying waaaay too much. I mean, do I really need a bed bug cover, feather mattress pad, mattress protector, sheets, comforter, blankets, pillow, pillow cases, bed bug pillow protector, and body pillow with cover just to sleep at night? Probably not. But I'm not gonna leave that up to chance. I definitely don't want to end up with bed bugs. And I've been assured by all the lovely sales people that it's all completely necessary. Then there's the kitchen supplies and the desk supplies and the bathroom supplies and the everything else stuff. Who knew it took so much! So yeah... I have lists upon lists upon lists. On top of that, I leave for Ireland in four days and six flags in two days. Therefore no free time in my foreseeable future.

In other news, this week has been pretty chill, just catching up on sleep from the TEC weekend. Until I went to see The Dark Knight Rises at midnight last night... then went to work at 8 this morning. I'm pretty much exhausted right now. But my heart is breaking for the families and victims of the Batman shooting in Colorado. I honestly don't know what would possess someone to commit such a horrible crime against completely innocent people. Seventy one people were shot. That's more than 3/4 of my graduating class. Like, that's a lot of people. I just can't even fathom it. My thoughts and prayers are with everyone effected by this horrible tragedy.

Hopefully exciting things will happen in my life soon because right now, things are helllllla boring to blog about. I guess once college comes, it'll really spice things up! So many new experiences in my future! I'm so nervous but I also can't wait!!

"She took the leap and built her wings on the way down."

Friday, July 13, 2012

friday da 13th.

I actually did stuff at work this mornings. What has life become?! Usually on Fridays, I sit and count tiles but today they actually kept us busy! We made folders and stocked baby warmers and put stickers on things and used a label maker! It's really pathetic when that's a highlight of my day. Now I'm sitting in my office waiting for my friend to call from Ireland! She said she'd call sometime between noon and four my time which means I could be sitting here waiting for a while. Which is actually fine cause I don't really have anything else to do anyway. Um... so I just found this patch of skin on my arm that's a gross and flaky and I don't know why.... sorry, random tangent. Tonight, I have to work, and Tanmay will be gone so it'll just be me, Sam and John, but John doesn't even do anything... so really it'll just be me and Sam. So we'll be reallllly busy. Then I have to go over to TEC where I'll be spending the rest of my weekend... YAY! But for now, I'm stuck sitting by the phone, waiting for it to ring. Which is hella boring. Meh. Also, my hair is wavy today. In case you were wondering.

Sunday, July 8, 2012

not my day.

I don't know why, but this has really just not been my weekend.. at all. I feel like I'm so tired I could just collapse but I haven't even done anything and I've gotten plenty of sleep. Everything and everyone is pissing me off and I just want to crawl into a dark corner and cry. It's probably long overdue... I mean, everyone has times like this, right? I usually brush these kinds of moods off and focus on acting happy but I just don't have the energy to do that right now. Like seriously, I could probably lay down in my bed right now and never get up again. But this is turning into a downer post and that's no fun.. so I'll give you a weekend recap instead.

Friday, I worked.... and then I think I hung out with my mom (?) then I worked some more. That night I saw Magic Mike (questionable at best...). Saturday, I hung out with dearest Lyssa and got coffeeeeee and then my dad and I went to see Brave (much less questionable than Magic Mike). Today I went to church, cleaned my room, hung out with Laura and Laina then went out to dinner to celebrate my daddy's birthday (which is technically tomorrow, but its whatever).

So yeah... kind of a lame weekend. I probably wouldn't have been the most enjoyable person to be around anyway honestly. I don't know what's wrong with me... mehhhh.

Hopefully this next week will be a lot more happy and exciting.. I have some things I really need to get sorted out before this weekend happens so cross your fingers that it goes well and doesn't end in an epic train wreck, which honestly is very likely. UGH. Kay, I'm going to go to sleep now, rant ovah.

"Don't let yesterday take up too much of today."

new sweater! look, i seem happy, right?? yayyy faking it!

Friday, July 6, 2012

growing up.

I guess I'm giving this blog a comeback. Thanks Laura for inspiring me to get back on the blog train. When I got a tumblr a few months ago, I kind of gave up this thinking that would be the same but guess what, it's not! So you missed some seriously important events, senior prom, spring musical, graduation, graduation party, NYC trip... I've been a busy girl! But now life is changing and I'm starting a new chapter in my life. Heading off to college in a month and a half, I want to record this next step just like I recorded my (beginning/middle of) senior year. I love looking back at my old posts and remember what a dork I was. We'll see how often I actually update this. Who knows, maybe my mom and dad will read this to keep up with me while I'm in St. Louis... I guess that means I'll have to control my language. Struggle of the century. 

With college right around the corner, I've been thinking a lot about who I am and who I want to become. After seeing Channing Tatum's new movie, Magic Mike, I realized that I'm not your average young woman. To be honest, I felt scummy after seeing it and like I seriously needed to go to confession. #catholickidproblems I know.. I was supposed to take Jenna and Alyssa to go see it, but I can't bring myself to take them knowing how it is. Maybe I'm a prude or an old fart at the ripe age of 18 but that's just not the kind of girl I want to be. I'm finding that in college, my options will be even more than I imagined and I don't want to be the girl who wastes her life living for the temporary things in the moment. I want to change the world, which may sound cliche but I want my life to mean something more. Now I'm probably just aimlessly babbling and I should go to bed... it's 12:20 at night after all. I'll probably look back at this post in the morning or 10 years from now and laugh at myself, but that's part of the fun of a blog, right? We'll just go with that I guess.

Hopefully I'll start getting into the habit of blogging more and such... nothing exciting, probably more of a personal life log than anything else. It'll be interesting to see what happens one year from now and how my life has worked out.

"One day, your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure it's worth watching."