Sunday, September 30, 2012

parents weekend.

It's homecoming/parents weekend here at good ol' SLU. My parents came down on Friday night and we went shopping then ate cheesecake! When I got back, I hung out with Alex and her twin sister who was here visiting and Ben and we hung out in Gries then went to Pickleman's and babysat drunk people while watching a movie and painting our nails. Yesterday, we went shopping some more and got some stuff at target (like a bean bag and a rug, getting ready for your visit Laura!). Then last night was the homecoming soccer game which was extremely boring and we only stayed for half... but at half time, there was an incredible firework show. We now know why we pay so much in tuition, it all goes to fireworks, imported palm trees and imported squirrels. But it's worth it, I'm madly in love with my school. It's great to be a Billiken. So anyway, after the game, we came back and got ready in our slutty Saturday clothes and took the metro downtown to the Taste of Saint Louis festival. There was a free All American Rejects concert so we went to that and it was AWESOME. The metro ride was kind of sketchy on the way there, but it was totally worth it. We only knew a few of their songs but we rocked out hardcore to Gives You Hell... dedicated to useless exes. After the concert, we all just came back and watched a movie. I actually fell asleep on the futon with Ben and woke up like 4 hours later and just walked to my room. This is going to sound really awkward and weird but it made me really excited for when I'm married and get to sleep next to the man I love every night, whoever he may be.. How awesome will that be? Unless he snores... then we're going to have a problem. Anyway, my parents and I are going to the zoo today and it's going to be fab! Yay family!
The group before the concert (minus Ben..)
Katie (Alex's twin), Alex, Conor, me and Brad in the back.

oh hey, this is Ben. he's pretty fabulous. i'm a fan.
ps. I was working on a project for my OT class and look what I found! I'm basically a celebrity. It's really old and I completely forgot about it til I just happened upon it.

Thursday, September 27, 2012

group projects.

My Interprofessional healthcare class is based almost solely on group work considering the point of that class is teamwork within all health care fields. Which is fine except that we don't choose our own groups and some people don't check their email apparently. There's supposed to be 5 of us in our group and we were supposed to meet sometime this week before class today. Did either happen? Nope. We haven't even heard from 2 of the people in our group and we are meeting after class but I'm not positive that the majority of our group knows that. So this is going to be super fun...

In other news, it's parents weekend so my mom and dad are coming to visit me! I deep cleaned our room today and it's still disgusting. Welcome to living with a slob. It's fantastic... she left dirty salsa dishes out for 2 weeks before I had to ask her to please clean them. Also, she got sick and threw up but didn't take out the trash that contained her vomit for like a week.... and I wasn't about to touch that shit. It was fucking nasty and it smelled like ass. Life is so fun sometimes.

Sunday, September 23, 2012

struggle bus.

Ohkay, so this weekend got off to a rough start on Friday night, so I was hoping it could only go up from there, right? Wrong. I woke up Saturday morning and Ben was ignoring me. Apparently he was just really embarrassed but then he got mad that I was mad but I wasn't even mad, I was just frustrated at the whole situation. So anyway, our floor is called the CAMEL floor (Career And Major Exploration Learning), which meant it was only fitting that we went to the zoo for a field trip! We invited all the guys from 15G (where Ben and Sam Sherwood live) to come with us so it was just a giant party. We took the metro there and then had to walk like another 20 minutes through the park to get there, but it was a beautiful day. We got to see the camels and the penguins and elephants and lions and such but of course, the one day we're there is the day that the snow leopard isn't out. Just my luck. It was seriously upsetting. But during that little bit at the zoo, Ben and I made up and although we haven't really talked about it yet (I'm working on it, don't worry), we have a better understanding of each other, at least for now. Last night, Brad, Alex, Ben and I were supposed to go on a double date to see Finding Nemo in 3D at the mall but then Brad pulled a dick move and told Alex that they were 'just friends' after leading her on for a month hardcore. So I ended up canceling on Ben and Alex, Rachel and I had a girls night. We walked to get froyo and then watched Get Him to the Greek and called it an early night. While we did that, Ben and 2 of our other friends went to a party at a different dorm and got shitfaced yet again. Then one of them puked. It was whatever though cause we didn't have to deal with it. Then this morning I wrote a paper and hardcore studied for a huge bio test tomorrow. I was in a review session this afternoon when Alex texted me and told me that our good friend made out with Brad last night, knowing everything that happened between him and Alex and that she was really upset. So that just made everything 20 times worse and its super tense up here on 11G... Plus, I'm going to fail Bio tomorrow, which is gonna be a swell time. Yaaay college.

Saturday, September 22, 2012


So, tonight was supposed to be perfect and amazing. First, Ben gave me roses and was super sweet. Then we went to see Disney on Ice (yes, we are 18 years old... and there were 11 of us...) and it was awesomeeee! Prince Charming wiped out on his ass and we all died laughing but felt a little bit bad for him.. and there was a whole Rapunzel section which was clearly my favorite! Then the club baseball team was having a 'fundraiser' party in the basement of an apartment complex off campus so we were going to go to that. The theme was 'Workout Bros and Yoga Hoes' so we all got dressed up and cute. There were 4 of us that weren't going to drink but still wanted to go just to see what it was like, but then one of our good friends was really drunk so Molly had to stay back with her to hold her hair back while she puked and such. So there were like 10 of us that ended up going and it was horrible. NEVER again. It was hot and sweaty and I got covered in beer and jungle juice, whatever the hell that shit is. Three of our friends from our floor got totally, completely, embarrassingly trashed and so did Ben, which was just fucking annoying. Especially after he told me multiple times that he doesn't really drink, never drinks to the point of being drunk and definitely doesn't drink hard liquor. Um.... well, 3 shots, 3 beers and 2 jungle juices later, I'm gonna say he lied to me. That's what pisses me off. If he wants to drink, that's fine, but don't lie to my face about how many shots you've taken when I clearly know it's been more than that. And then the party got busted by the cops so we all had to leave. At that moment, all the problems began. One girl was so drunk that she couldn't walk, so me and Alex had to get 3 random guys to help us get her back to the dorm, which was no easy task. She called our RA and left her a 5 minute voicemail about how drunk she was.... good fucking time, that's for damn sure. It took us 20 minutes to get back to Gries, which is only like 3 minutes away. Then we had to put all the drunks to bed, walk one drunk friend back across campus to his dorm, make sure no one puked and take showers to get all the nasty beer and shit out of our hair. And apparently while Alex and I were walking Conor back to his dorm, Ben was crying and going on and on about how much I mean to him and how he didn't want to mess things up and that he didn't want me to be mad at him, etc., etc. But he was already back to his room by the time I got back so I don't have to deal with that til tomorrow morning... that'll be a great time. Basically, tonight was an epic mess and it's definitely killing what was supposed to be an amazing weekend. Yaaaaay college... definitely never doing that again if I can help it.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012


I seriously have nothing to do which is why I've been blogging so much recently. I mean, I guess I could be studying but that's so not my style... which will probably come back to bite me in the ass when I take my first test on Monday in Biology. But all my friends are doing homework right now which means I have nothing to do, so logically I should do my homework but I've never been the logical type. Last night, we had initiation for APO, a service fraternity so that was fun, we got to get all dressed up and look pretty for it, which is a rare occurrence aside from mass on Sunday. Then tonight, there's a profit share for charity at the Flying Cow which is a FroYo place not too far off campus. There's a huge group of us going and none of us have been there yet so it's really exciting! This weekend holds all sort of fun things - a floor trip to the zoo, shopping, slutty Saturday, hopefully Finding Nemo in 3D on a triple date (assuming things between Ben and I have figured themselves out...) and then studying, which definitely is not fun. Oh, and on Friday night, there's a huge club baseball team 'fundraiser' party that all of our friends are going to so we'll probably go for a little bit and then come back and have a girls night, complete with chick flicks, nail painting, face masks and gossip. All the good stuff. And on Saturday we're hopefully getting a new pet fish for Alex since hers died a few weeks ago. It was traumatic. So anyway, its sure to be a long, busy, exciting weekend!!

Tuesday, September 18, 2012


Okay, so this is a totally random post and it has not much of anything to do with anything but guy friends are literally the greatest things ever. I've never had super close guy friends before so I didn't really know what it was like. In college I have these two really super amazingly awesome guy friends named Brad and Conor. They are seriously so much fun and make me laugh so hard all the time. Best of all? The stick up for you and support you through anything. Tonight I was feeling kind of homesick and upset and Brad was snuggling with Alex (they have a thing if ya know what I mean) and he was just like 'Maggie come here, I have two arms' and offered to comfort me. Alex probably wouldn't have liked that too much but it was the thought that counted. So yeah... I really really like having guy friends, it's such a new experience!

Monday, September 17, 2012

this only happens to me.

Why is it that I date guys that everyone else thinks are gay? I get back from going home for the weekend and I find that Ben has gone shopping.... and bought cardigans, v-necks and skinny jeans. Da fuck? And I'm wearing a tshirt that he has too tonight and he just said to me in an incredibly feminine voice "we could wear matching t-shirts sometime!" and Alex almost died laughing. Seriously... I don't even know what I'm doing with my life right now. He's such an amazing guy and apparently he's really into me but I don't know how I feel and I still feel emotionally damaged from the whole Adam situation and so I seriously am losing my mind. I don't have a clue what to do. Today, we were supposed to go get lunch but I had killer cramps so we just cuddled and I took a nap and it was perfect in everyday but there's always people around so there's no such thing as privacy and I really don't do PDA. At all. Like, I hate it. A lot. And everyone on our floor things we're freaking perfect so that puts me in an even more compromising situation. Did I mention that he tells the same story like fifty fucking times in a row? It gets real old, real fast. And this little old blog is the only place I can vent, so here it is. If anyone has some expert relationship advice, let me know cause lord knows I need it.

Thursday, September 13, 2012

kiss and tell.

So, I went on a date last night. It was so uncharacteristic of me to be honest. Like, I always said I needed to be really good friends with a guy before we went out and I've known this guy for like a week. He's really good friends with my best friend Alex's roommate and he had a shitty roommate situation so he would always just hang out on our floor in their room, where I would also be since they have the comfy futon. Christy and Alex decided to play matchmaker and set us up, and guess what, it worked! I told them I thought he was cute, they told me he said the same thing and basically what happened is that we knew we were into each other and we would kind of snuggle but not really and then Tuesday night a group of us were watching a movie in their room and towards the very end of the movie, I put my head on his shoulder and then he put his arm around me and then it kind of escalated from there.... So then yesterday, he texted me and asked what I was doing that night and so he asked me out on a date :) It was kind of awkward at first... we were both really nervous, but I looked super cute, so that gave me some confidence. After a slightly uncomfortable meal where I got to know a lot more about him (he sails, his favorite color is green, he likes fruit, etc. - creep, i know), we went to his room to watch a movie. The catch is that he doesn't actually have a futon... just his bed. So we snuggled on his bed and watched The Notebook. Except I think I might have fallen asleep and something tells me he wasn't really paying attention. So it was really just an excuse to snuggle. Half way through the movie, his new roommate walked in and was like "oh shit, what's going on, man next time, just text me, sorry for interrupting" and it was really awkward and uncomfortable. Anyway... we were just laying on his bed (not in, don't worry!) and he kissed me. Like, not just a little peck on the lips. But it wasn't like full on making out either. It was just right. Best part? He actually showed self control and pull me back when it was too much, which doesn't sound like an important detail, but to me, it meant a lot. He might not have even been consciously doing it. But it happened... on the first date. And high school Maggie would be totally appalled with me right now. I mean, we aren't dating, I don't even know that we will be dating. Plus, now I'm wondering how I break to him that I'm saving myself for marriage. Like, I hardly know him (wow, this just keeps sounding worse...) and its such an awkward situation to bring up. But it needs to be said sooner rather than later, right? Otherwise it just gets messy and uncomfortable. So anyway, thats my life currently. I can't decide whether I'm happy or want to slow things down. This is how college is supposed to be, so why don't I feel quite right about it? I really really like Ben, but the inner good girl in me is freaking out. And it's not like I'm even doing anything bad... I really just need to chill the fuck out. #welcometomylife

Monday, September 10, 2012


Ugh. Boys are a struggle. First of all, there's this awkward boy who's a super sweet guy, but not for me who thinks I'm super hot and keeps asking people for advice on how to talk to me.... and I feel really bad but it's just not gonna happen. And then there's this other guy, but that's a pain in the butt of a situation. Here's the kicker, I have guy friends. Like, not just kinda friends like I had in high school, but like legit guy friends. It's so weird.

Things at college have been going well! Yesterday a big group of us went to see a Cardinals game and then we all just hung out. Plus, MEGHAN was here this weekend, which was FABULOUSSS!

UPDATE: Okay, so I started writing this blog at like 4:30 this afternoon but then I got distracted... so let me just tell you all about the scary shit that went down since then. Firstly, all hell broke loose in the Gries complex and sketchy shit involving me and my friends was like terrifying, then Alex and I went to a drill team "info night" which is apparently code for 'lets drag all of them to the top of a sketchy abandoned parking deck and fucking scream at them even though they have no idea what they're doing'. Yeah, good fucking times. At one point one of the guys came up to me and screamed, 'why are you here?' and I was on the verge of tears so I was just like 'I don't fucking want to be here!' so he was like 'no one is making you stay!'. Of course, I couldn't really leave by myself and abandon Alex, considering she was the only reason I was there... So I just threw up a peace sign in the air and literally said 'peace out bros' and walked over to the corner where I sat down and tried not to cry. It was literally the worst night of my life. I was shaking for like an hour afterwards and Alex almost threw up in the bushes like 4 times as we were walking home. Seriously, awful. And I'm getting sick... and I got like 3 hours of sleep last night. Everything is fucking roses right now guys.

Thursday, September 6, 2012

coloring pages and football games.

I've almost survived my second week of college with no problems. I have my first quiz tomorrow in college algebra, but I'm not too concerned... it's just review. We're also turning in our first english papers and I had my first bio lab but it's all been fairly painless! I rearranged my room today with the help of some lovely boys who proceeded to do weird manly things once they successfully moved my wardrobe... boys are so strange and foreign to me. Anyway, Meghan and my mama are both coming tomorrow and I'm super excited to see them and spend the weekend with Meggo. She'll get to see all the lovely SLU sights, from Billiken waffles to Slutty Saturday. We keep it real classy here. Like last night, a group of like 5 of us sat on the floor in my room and watched football while coloring in my Sesame Street coloring book. Annnd Alex and I ate an entire thing of Oreos, peanut butter and milk. Which was swell. But we also climbed enough stairs to make it to the top of the Sears Tower, so it's whatever. This is my college life, never a dull moment, that's for sure.

Monday, September 3, 2012

this is not a drive by-y-yyy! except it totally was.

Last Saturday and Sunday mornings, plus yesterday morning and this morning when I woke up, I've checked my emails and gotten something from the SLUDOPS (department of public safety)... let's just say some sketchy shit happens around here. The first three were all about attempted rapes on campus or directly off campus, but they make sure to emphasize that those involved were NOT affiliated with the university. Today however, I woke up and checked my email to see that there was a drive by shooting about a block from campus, in an area I had been last night. Sketchy, right? Welcome to SLU. We are basically friends with guys for the sole purpose of having them to walk with at night when we want to go somewhere. It's great fun. Parties here are sketchy as fuck too... at least from what I hear.. I wouldn't actually know. Yayyyyy college!

Sunday, September 2, 2012

lazy sunday.

Well guess what. I should be doing homework right now... but instead I'm blogging! It's been a kind of lazy Sunday, slept til 10:30, took a shower, did some homework, went to lunch with friends (nothing on campus is open on Sunday for lunch except the Gries cafeteria in case you were wondering) and now I'm back here to do some more work before going to work out this afternoon. Tonight, I'm going to dinner with Katherine and her parents who are in town then going to mass at 9 with Rachel and Molly. It's been weird, my closest friend went home for the weekend so it's been dull on good old 11G. But 11G made a sorority on our floor and are getting 'Delta Phi Camel' tshirts so we're all really really excited. Our floor has bonded so well and we are really tight... well, at least half of us are. But I guess I should really go do homework now so I can go to the gym.... yaaaaaay fitness.