So, maybe I should do a real blog today too... Meghan distracted my earlier one. As I was saying, it was a beautiful day and Laura, Laina and I took our fall picture for our graduation party. While Laina and I were waiting, we sat in the cute little round-a-bout and just enjoyed the weather, which was lovely! Then I took Adam to lunch during his free hour (hahaaa, he still had school today). OH! and this morning, I helped my mom at church with the little kids trick-or-treating. They were all dressed up so cutely! Anyway... this afternoon, my mom, Meghan and I drove to Washington to pick up my senior pictures!! I'm so happy with them!
So, its BEAUTIFUL outside today. We had no school, which made it even better. This week has sucked some major ass but last night the talent show went so so well, so everything is great! Meghan and I are sitting on my bed and she is slurping really loudly and disgustingly in my ear. And then she burped. It's gross. She's icky. But I love herrr. She burped again. Nastyyy. Get her away from meee.
I've been slacking quite a bit lately. See, I have a very very bad case of senioritis... and it's only October. Yeah, I know, I'm screwed. I haven't even been accepted to college yet and I'm already giving up on school. But it's just so hard to focus on school when there are more exciting things to do in the world! I hate having to do homework when I could go hang out with Adam or my friends or even just chill and watch Grey's Anatomy with my dad. So, I've concluded lately that I'm just really really lazy. Like, seriously, it's embarrassing. As a result of this, I haven't really done much with Blanket Fairies recently. Last week I decided it was getting ridiculous so I'm having a blanket making party on Tuesday (cross your fingers that we get a lot done..) and today I went massive fleece shopping. Like MASSIVE. There was a huge sale at one of the fabric stores in town and so we bought enough to make like 75 blankets. Granted, all of those won't be made on Tuesday... I'm hoping we can get like 25-30 done. There's a few people who sometimes come and instead of helping, they just distract everyone. It's really disappointing, but I don't want to discourage people from coming, so I let it be. My dad finished hanging all the extra decorations for our 'work room' and its finally ready! We've been working on it for like 4 months now... embarrassing for us.
Speaking of procrastination... I just wrote an AP lit paper... that was assigned a week ago. And it kind of sucked because I waited this long to work on it... but whatever. Since we have a short week, I really need to dedicate some extra time to scholarships and applications and such, so wish me luck! Friday's going to be my catch-up day... unless I decide to be lazy... which is highly likely, let's be honest.
so lazy I couldn't even take a shower last night/this morning... notice the curls and left over makeup from last night... awkward for meee.
This week has been crazy busy so I haven't blogged too much. Today was wonderful and I'm too wound up to go to sleep so I'm gonna blog instead. In the morning, I went over to Laina's for a pumpkin inspired breakfast, and it was delicious... even though I'm not a huge fan of pumpkin. Then tonight, Adam and I celebrated our 6 month anniversary. It was a wonderful night and I'm looking forward to spending another six months and more with him! He's perfect and everything I could ever hope for. We went out to dinner and then to see Footloose (which was really good, by the way) and got ice cream! Although I was a little bit frozen (short skirt not necessarily the best idea for a fall outfit), nothing could put a damper on it!
You can always tell what kind of night I had by how I do my hair the next morning. If its straightened or styled, you know I had a boring night and slept well. If its wet in the morning, you know I fell asleep before I could take a shower. If its in a headband with a ponytail, you know I was either just lazy as fuck when I woke up, I had a bad night or I slept horribly. This is the look I was rocking today. It's a combination of oversleeping and still having homework to do this morning as well as having an awful nights sleep last night. I literally slept for 3 solid hours and then hardly at all from 2:00 til 6:00... then I fell asleep and had to wake up at 6:30... and didn't hear my alarm. However, last night wasn't bad. In fact, it was quite the opposite... Adam came over and we watched Rent live on broadway, which happens to be my favorite movie. It was pretty much perfect, especially since I've been struggling with all of that lately. But he was over til like 9:30 and then I still had to do a lot of homework. Soooo... yeah. You probably didn't care about any of that. But now you know anywaaay. Time to go study for another painful psych test.
Well... this weekend has been kind of rough. There's been a lot of really emotional stuff going on and I feel like I'm starting to wear thin. I finished my precal homework and just have to do a little bit of reading now for tomorrow, so it's nice to just kind of relax right now. I put on my noise blocking headphones and turned on my music realllly loud so the bass is really pumping. Just how I like it. I also got a white chocolate caramel chiller at the mall today which made me really happy. Also while at the mall, Laina and I found some of the greatest cards EVER. They were hilarious. So there were some definite positives this weekend, but I feel kind of drained.
Confused is probably one of my least favorite words ever. It has some negative experiences linked to it for me, but I even beyond that, depending on the context it's used in, it just makes things more confused. Despite how much I dislike it, it's one of the only words I can think of to describe how I feel right now. I'm kind of stuck at a crossroads with a lot of things and I don't really know what to do. I just want to curl in a ball and sleep until my problems solve themselves. I think a lot of unresolved, pushed aside problems are just kind of coming to the surface and I'm back in a place I don't really want to be. But... iTunes is psychic or something because it's on shuffle and is playing Worth It by Francesca Battistelli. I guess that's a message for me. I'll stop venting now and get on to real life...
I'm noooot in a good mood tonight. I hate being in a bad mood so I usually try to stay positive or at least not be superrr negative, but it's just been too much. As I said before, Adam was coming back from vacation tonight, so I thought I was going to get to see him... so I made sure I was totally free tonight after my dance class was done at 6. So I spent my whole night... alone... doing precal. Once I figured out I wasn't gonna get to see him... it was too late to do anything about it. I returned some movies and bought candy for my football players and sat around... and played an obscene amount of piano. I have a kind of busy weekend coming up so I really don't know when I'm gonna see him. Which frustrates me even more. I guess I just wish I felt like more of a priority to him. But, you can't change what you can't change, and I'm kind of turning into the girl I swore I'd never be. It's embarrassing. Which again adds to my frustration. I was never gonna be dependent on any guy for my happiness and I definitely wasn't gonna feel the need to talk to him all the time or see him a lot. But... I guess love changes things? Who knows... I'm 17 years old. Maybe I'm as pathetic as everyone I've ever called pathetic. Gah.. I'm just a bit of a mess tonight.
Oh, plus we got a huge dress code lecture at school today and now have a dress code for school dances.. awesome. Fuck you central. Actually, fuck you teachers that 'are uncomfortable chaperoning dances' when we're wearing dresses that are still more modest than most schools... and while I'm at it, fuck you teachers who thought that our cheer dance 'degraded us and didn't uphold our womanly dignity' or whatever the hell they said was wrong with it. Yeesh, it's not like we were naked or even doing anything bad. Pack the place is gonna be boring as hellll.
but wall-e is so effing cute that its hard not to cheer up a little when you see these.
My aunts are here. And my uncle, but he's tolerable. They're loud and obnoxious and weird. I can't even hear myself think over the sounds of their 'conversation'... thank goodness my mom is the normal sibling. Oh hot damn, I'm gonna go insane even though they're only gonna be here for like.. less than 24 hours. They won't stop bickering and yelling and heaven knows what else. GAAAAAH, I'm gonna lose my mind.
ohhh boy, more picnik. i just get so bored sometimes.
I am currently eating a huge chunk of chocolate/peanut butter fudge. It's so tasty. This weekend, Laina, Jackie and I went to an apple orchard, and clearly the most sensible thing to get at an apple orchard/pumpkin patch is fudge. But I don't really care cause it's freaking amazing. This weekend I also went on a college visit to SLU again. I loved it (again) and am so excited to go there next fall... if only I'd get my acceptance letter. It was supposed to come last week in the mail... but the admissions counselor was like "just kidding, it hasn't even been looked at yet.. you'll hear back in 4-6 weeks" and I almost screamed. My dad got really angry at the guy too... it was kinda funnny.
This week is gonna be long and boring... but Adam's finally coming home from Disney World where he's been for the last week celebrating his little sisters 6th birthday. Not gonna lie, I've missed him a lot so I'm really glad he'll be home soon. I have a couple of tests this week that I'm not looking forward to.. plus the advanced biology lab exam that I took today over the entire axial skeleton... don't know what that is? You're lucky. Who knew each vertebrae had like 20 parts to it... and I had to learn allll of them. I just pray I remember it all for when I have to take a class like this in college. Our theology teacher isn't so great at teaching so I'm pretty much gonna bomb that test tomorrow too... awesome. I love when teachers are the reason you do badly in their class... it's great.
I guess I'm gonna go eat some more fudge or something now...
weeeeeee! i played around with picnik some this weekend too while i was bored.
awwww, my mamaa
mmmm... fudge. i look kinda scary in this picture.
This afternoon, I came home from an incredibly shitty day of school to find I had a friend request on facebook. I usually don't get excited by friend requests... at all. My response is usually 'ignore' because they're not usually anybody I know/care about. Seriously, just because we have the same name or live in the same town does not mean I know you. Or, if you're a freshman at my school, but I have no idea who you are, I'm not gonna be your friend because there's a high chance that you're going to be annoying as fuck. But, today, I got on and almost peed my pants with excitement over a friend request. It was from my best friend from my childhood, Kate. She and I were inseparable from pre-k on. In elementary, she moved to Chicago, but we stayed really close and visited each other all the time. Then, in junior high, she moved to Ireland. Yeah... the country across the big blue sea. It sucked. Long distance calls are expensive, and her accent got to be so thick that even when we talked on the phone, I couldn't really understand her. I went to visit her in 8th grade, and since then we've kept in touch through emails but it's really difficult sometimes even through that. So today, when I had a friend request from her, I was so excited, it was ridiculous. I'm looking forward to be able to see pictures of her and her wonderful family and keep in touch with her better!
a picture of kate and i with her little sister and a friend from our old neighborhood on one of her few visits back to the us
Haven't blogged too much this week... homecoming stuff has been crazy. Seniors dominated powderpuff, tug of war, boys volleyball and hallway decorating. All we do is wiiiiin no matter what! It's crazy to think that my last homecoming ever is done. I wouldn't have had any of it any other way. The dance was perfect... perfect date, perfect friends, everything. I LOVED the way my hair and makeup turned out and I was just really happy with how everything looked. Literally all of my friends looked gorgeous and all the boys looked like studs. This was my first homecoming dance with a date... better late than never, right? But it was great to get to share it with my boyfriend. Now I guess it's time to move onto the next thing.. not quite sure what that is yet though... I guess just surviving until my birthday? OH! This week I should be getting my acceptance/rejection letter from SLU, so that's terrifying. Then next Monday I'm going to visit the campus again for preview day since we have a long weekend! I'm getting really excited/nervous!