big girl classes.

I have officially survived my first three days of college classes. While everyone else has been running around like crazy people stressing about having so much homework, I'm here like "uh... I guess I could read my next chapter in biology for next week... or do my math homework thats not due til Wednesday..."which is awkward. So far my classes aren't anything too exciting either. The only one that seems even slightly intense is my college algebra class, and that's only because we have like 7 million problems assigned each night for homework. Other than that, everything has been low key so far. Who knows how long that will continue...

Today, we had the SLU fair which had booths for all the activities and things that you can get involved in and to say my choices were diverse would be an understatement. I signed up for the club crew team, drill team, students for life, billikens after dark, SLU dance marathon, Phases of Motion (dance team), Sorores in Christo (catholic women's group), Relay for Life, SLU Student Occupation Therapy Organization, Hawaii Club, Forte (music tutoring for inner city students) and the SLU Student Activities Board. Let's be honest, I'm not going to actually do all of them... or even half for that matter but I like to keep my options open!

Tonight, some girls from my floor and I are going to see the Lion King on broadway at the Fox Theater. I'm really excited even though I've already seen it before. Things are really starting to look up here at SLU!

college saturday night.

Well.... this was my first Saturday night in college. Let's just say we've been at SLU for 4 days and 11G (my floor) already has a reputation across campus. You say you live in 11G, the response you'll most likely get is "ohhh man, that's a fun floor" or some other reference to our parties. Two girls got written up for alcohol tonight on our floor and pretty much everyone is either out at a party or drunk. There was a big group of us that just sat in a dorm room and talked and watched all the drunk people on our floor being idiots. It was highly amusing... never try roller blading while intoxicated, it doesn't end well. I'm really really glad that I found a group of girls who don't drink that I can hang out with. It's super awesome and all of them are really cool to hang out with. I start classes Monday and I'm tweaking out a little bit but it'll all work out!

God knows what He's doing.

So, I'm finally at college... crazy thought, right? Well, it's been a crazy busy 24 hours and to be honest, I haven't really felt that 'click' yet. The "this is where I belong, look I'm making so many new friends" sort of thing. But hopefully it'll get better. Tonight we had a square dance and then late night breakfast so I met some new people there. My roommate and I seem to get along well... so far we've pretty much just been giving each other our space but I think she and I have the same opinions on a lot of things. Hopefully it will all work itself out and be what God wants it to be. That's what I keep telling myself anyway. Now I'm sitting here in my dorm room alone and I'm wondering what's going to be next for me.... I know God has a plan so I'm really trying to trust Him and follow His lead.

my itsy bitsy dorm room.... 

here goes nothing...

In 2.5 days, I'll be leaving my home, my friends, my family and everything I've ever known for college and St. Louis. To say I'm scared would be an understatement. What if I don't make friends? Or what if my roommate and I don't get along? Or what if my classes are really hard? Basically, my mind has been running at a million miles an hour for the last week. I know I'll be alright but the fear of the unknown is killing me. I've been packing up all my stuff and I have so much more than I anticipated. Like, two huge garbage bags plus two huge totes full of just clothes and shoes. Plus I'm not done packing my clothes. I was dumb though and didn't really think to leave myself any clothes for the next few days.... which means I'll basically be rocking the same outfit on repeat. Yummmo. Hopefully I won't smell toooo bad. My mom is going to be such a hot mess, she is being so clingy and obnoxious this week. The hardest part is saying goodbye... So far three of my best friends have left on their own college journeys, which has left my life pretty boring. You wouldn't think three people leaving would have such a big impact but it definitely has. In the next few days, the goodbyes just get harder - my friend who hasn't left yet, my friends who are still in high school and my parents. I'll probably cry like crazy for all but my parents. To be honest, I'm not sure that will make me too upset at all. I'm ready to be independent and on my own. My whole life I've been kind of  "smothered" under their love and it's time for me to handle myself.

So overall, I'm terrified, but very, very ready to leave. Hopefully I won't forget anything major at home on move-in day. And don't worry, I'll keep you updated on all my adventures as a college student!

xoxo